SMILE WITH ME =)

2010-01-25T02:08:00.001+08:00

BLANK

i dont want..

2010-01-06T01:08:00.002+08:00

=) you make me smile..

sleep tight sexy.

2010-01-04T15:01:00.002+08:00

even lychee martini is not helping now.

really dont hurt me. if you could see my true self, maybe you'll understand more than this.

who's not glad to be loved? but who can scream into my ears that this 100% is not gonna break me into pieces.

stronger

2009-12-30T00:41:00.003+08:00

i dream to be a superman. i dream to fly.
who's not dreaming of it? and who can be one?

my mind is dying, i'm breaking.
my blue skies are fading, i'm gathering all my strength chasing and i feel.. i'm dying. i'm running out of everything left in me.
i'm not speechless, i'm pretending to be one. i need to scream but i cant let my tears out.

if i were given another chance, i'd still want to be theirs.
if this's fate, i'll call it mine. i accept.

upside down.

2009-11-18T00:10:00.004+08:00

SUCK SUCK SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!
fuck this day, fuck myself.
i suck big time and i'm pretty sure.

if i dont spell out this would you ever know? studies is important to me.
if i dont show out would you ever know? i try my best to bring out the best in me. apparently people were all shocked when they saw me in class today flipping, typing and reading those chunk of words! in the nick of time. thats why i'm an idiot. and i was a bitch after UT.

take my hand, tell me everything will be good in time to come. give me a hug and say i love you. all i want this christmas.

runaway.

fuck off! cause my life is pretty sucky.

as long as you love me.

2009-11-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

i could buy a bigger heart, a wider mind.
2012 makes me want to live my life like i am doing now. HAHHA!! =)

run these thoughts away!

2009-11-11T00:40:00.003+08:00

number one is wrong, number two is worse, number three has gone, number four is dead.

terrible, i didnt know i was long wasted.

" life is not all about grades and stress." but is life all about achievements? dont restrict me, let me free. commitment suck big time! I suck big time. but this's my life. still. do i have a choice? obviously not. i have to hold on to that spoken word cause if i dont, i'm a loser, an ultimate one. and i say, " this's the last time."

i cannot regret, i'll smile. but, can i choose to be a loser? im tired, i'm stuck on this one way street. i paint my life the way i want it - i see it as half filled. do you see it too?

life

2009-11-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

how simple is black and white? how confusing can colours be?

for every tmr, i'm stronger by abit.

2009-10-31T02:15:00.004+08:00

"See, if you should ever find someone new

I know she better be good to you

'Cause if she doesn't then

I'll be there"

i choose to take colours with me.

i choose to shut my eyes and ears to whats happening.

thank you

2009-10-29T23:40:00.001+08:00

"ok... u take care ok... all this are part of life... how u wanna be during this period of time is really up to u be positive of be negative is really in ur attitude

so be positive no matter what coz at the end of the day everything happens for a reason
nothing is easy in life... everything comes through hard work... loving life the way is it, with all the ups n downs is really is the person attitude.... i wont ask u anything like what happen n stuff... coz if u wanna tok about it u know we are there for u... all i wanna say is that just have that positive attitude n move on... n dont let today's sadness or failure etc affect ur tmw oktmw is a new day.. forget it n live ur tmw....

thatz how one enjoy life even though they are going through a lot of problems"

pillar of strength.

dont refuse what i've to give.

2009-10-29T14:48:00.003+08:00

family issues suck big time. they screwed my life and made me the most painful person living. but well, life still goes on.

your emotions. i'm not dumb, i choose to play this role. i'm not clever, i choose not to learn how to. there are alot of things i can see but i choose to be blinded.

take everything away, let me keep the sport i love.
i'm not a superwoman.

more than your strength.

2009-10-29T00:48:00.004+08:00

life is short. pay attention to things that deserve the time and effort. what's at stake now? nothing more than playing this game well. how good is good? how bad is bad?

not all questions have to be answered. i'll still standby this, somethings are better left discovered. spare yourself from those painful miseries, life is not about suffering in pain but going through every setback with pride.

i've made a choice, to live my life fantasizing. cheers to that martini, i'll chauffeur you home.

bring perfect

2009-10-15T11:12:00.001+08:00

Coach Gaines: Well it's real simple: You got two more quarters and that's it.
Now most of you have been playin' this game for ten years. And you got two more quarters and after that most of you will never play this game again as long as you live. Now, ya'll have known me for awhile, and for a long time now you've been hearin' me talk about being perfect.
Well I want you to understand somethin'. To me, being perfect is not about that scoreboard out there. It's not about winning. It's about you and your relationship to yourself and your family and your friends.

Being perfect is about being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didn't let them down, because you told them the truth. And that truth is that you did everything that you could. There wasn't one more thing that you could've done.

Can you live in that moment, as best you can, with clear eyes and love in your heart? With joy in your heart?

If you can do that gentlemen, then you're perfect.
I want you to take a moment. And I want you to look each other in the eyes. I want you to put each other in your hearts forever, because forever's about to happen here in just a few minutes.

2009-10-14T14:32:00.002+08:00

i flipped all the pages searching for you when you went missing.

i found you but lost your soul.

engaged in other's fairy tale. this is mine, a pretty messed up one.

2009-10-13T01:18:00.006+08:00

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy... or anything.

i'm sorry

every tue and thurs

2009-10-08T14:44:00.002+08:00

though at times i'll take breaks in between but when it becomes a habit, i wouldnt want to kick it. whats thurs without training?

as simple as 1,2,3,4

2009-10-04T23:50:00.003+08:00

simplicity is perfection.

i adore you, really.

2009-10-03T01:27:00.004+08:00

backing off.
some may consider it a cowardly act.

Ps. the more i love you, the more i'll want to set you free.
my time now " sexy, i really hate that i love you."

material comfort?

2009-10-02T02:10:00.003+08:00

call this a shelter - an empty shell

i dont need a hotel to stay.

ignore the world, fly with you.

2009-10-02T01:52:00.000+08:00

get well soon, sexy =)

percentage i need.

2009-10-01T01:16:00.003+08:00

you show me that you really do. and is true, youre giving 101%.

- like a stone but diamond.
ps. is true, keep you close.

mine

2009-09-29T03:29:00.002+08:00

yours.

2009-09-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

not without you, workaholic.

2009-09-22T01:50:00.000+08:00

get it all done.

not as easy as you thought.

2009-09-17T03:15:00.002+08:00

because you're in my life, you're my consideration.

i didnt give up plainly and completely for you. i'm not doing that, this is me. is just that all the factors are choking me and leaving me on a one way street that says : let go.
i've made up my mind.

i'm committing

2009-09-16T02:57:00.004+08:00

happen the way i want it.
my bed aint in any way too comfy, obviously. feels like insomnia..
plan to make it happen. bring them all alive, seriously.

ps. baby baby, more than words.

sexy

2009-09-12T03:55:00.000+08:00

how's your day?

tonight

insomniac

2009-09-10T03:33:00.000+08:00

the only thing that stands out in total darkness at 3.36am

beauty is in the eyes of beholder
ps, you're beautiful.

insomnia, i'm sick

2009-09-08T03:24:00.001+08:00

to love is to first learn to love yourself.

i'll be there for you

2009-09-07T02:22:00.002+08:00

sometimes a hug can be more meaningful than a kiss.
sometimes speak from a friend's point of view can be more helpful
when youre in love, youre not in love every second.
when you learn to seek personal space, you learn to be independent and when you achieve this, you love becomes sensible. who needs a childish love?

we are two individual who are coming together.
sometimes what i need is nothing more than a genuine smile. to tell me youre fine, youre not thinking.

define who am i.

2009-08-25T00:52:00.006+08:00

the whole world is screaming but i'm not listening.
proved the whole world right and proved me wrong. call me a loser, a big time loser. i'm not keen in competing. enjoying the best of both worlds. isit really possible?

define disappointment.
p.s. they werent true. they let you down, they made you cry. they tore you apart. my love is real and youre tearing me apart.

i miss rugby, somehow.

2009-08-21T00:12:00.002+08:00

what is thursday without training and with UT tmr?!

animal UT =(

2 bread + 2 oreo

2009-08-20T01:45:00.003+08:00

hollow man.

oh oh oh oh! 98.7 screaming from my telly.
and its playing falling for you.

"i'm trying, not to tell you.."

alternatives.

2009-08-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

appreciate nature.

it provides answers to all your questions.

appreciate silence.

it provides a peaceful environment for relaxation.

appreciate art.

it says everything about you.

2009-08-18T14:41:00.000+08:00

hope to hear from you.

2009-08-17T14:57:00.000+08:00

2009-08-17T01:48:00.000+08:00

it has to be you.
cause i want it this way, very badly.

cause nobody said its easy, ever

2009-08-12T15:02:00.003+08:00

alot to do with mood and feeling. even when the whole world is falling, i say i can still see colours. apparently alot of things in life is not in my control hence to this, what i can say or do is limited. at the end of the day i'll still bite onto this fact that everything happens for a reason and in many a time, it is due to our own action/s.

if youre choked, try taking a step back.

p.s. white flag

2009-08-12T12:27:00.002+08:00

tell me how to be.

2009-08-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

keeps getting in the way..

colours?

2009-08-07T14:18:00.000+08:00

faded black and white

get into the four wheels.

2009-07-28T00:28:00.003+08:00

not bother =)

aww!! lets go hawaii.
p.s. engaging in some serious shit is so not what i'm supposed to be doing now.
if you want to drink with me. if you want to get high with me. RAISE UP YOUR HAND!!! LETS GO!!

show me the way

2009-07-25T02:02:00.003+08:00

" if i dont kill my phone tonight, i dont know what will happen to me tmr. "

p.s. take on this ride with me, i'll keep you safe, dont ever think of jumping off the car halfway cause we'll get there, baby.

aim to be the best, not second best.

2009-07-23T13:41:00.002+08:00

something's wrong with my blog and i dont have extra time to check whats wrong. "if its dead, just leave it."

my plans for today: screw AP ut, work very hard on field, shut them down hardcore cause its either we or them. we dont give in, in this case cause we have rainbow on our side remember?

p.s. look far, anticipate what is infront of you cause in life, there is no surprise =)

i'll make sure youre always not too far away from me. in case i lose sight of you and lose you forever.

2009-07-22T14:36:00.002+08:00

my life is corrupted.
until 12am tonight.

hello superstar

2009-07-21T00:11:00.003+08:00

i'm your biggest fan, i'll be your paparazzi, with you it feels like i am finally home, you leave me speechless when you talk to me, you leave me breathless the way you look at me. you got me stuck between my fantasy and whats real, i'm stuck on you. i was lost and you've rescued me, you've become my addiction and i'm so strung out on you i can barely move but i like it and its all because of you. and i know that its love becasue i cant sleep till youre next to me.

get well soon baby.

2009-07-13T00:31:00.005+08:00

"stop screaming!" - inside my head.

sometimes i really wonder the bottomline of perfection. where am i heading, what am i doing. how much more and how long more. i lost my determination.
while honeys words make alot of sense to me and really pull me up, what lies ahead are obstacles that i can overcome only after my world stops screaming.

bring me to a place i truely love to be in. i dont hate my life just alittle sick of myself. at this point of time though.

still, i'm not keeping anything imperfect.

before i sleep tonight,

2009-07-08T01:55:00.002+08:00

screw webmail! suckiest shit.

p.s. because we've chosen to be a rugger. because we love this field and becasue we know our capabilities and abilities and we know we aint gonna let our pants drop there and then? because we know we saw rainbow. HANG ON & LETS GET THERE!

at this very moment this's the only thing i can think of doing. and thats to make you recite with me the lyrics of the song you gave me when my world came crashing.

be stubborn in the things you believe.

I promise you, the answer will come

Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

Everything in its time

make me your bride. are you home?

2009-07-06T00:59:00.004+08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL KID!

oh ya anyway i hate dick heads. got to screw them hardcore, seriously. honey knows who.
SAT'S WAS AWESOME! alittle of everything plus hell lots of fun.

p.s. boo's scolding was damn damn =( seriously nobody would want to try it. never again!

*shiver, scared

see me disfigured

2009-07-01T13:13:00.003+08:00

and i was wondering for what does being on loa do me good. apparently it sucks because i'm tasked a self-completed ws. ARRGHH! had a hard time handling those questions. typed out in paragraphs but i thought everything was out of point. HAHA!

adventure education has 3 questions. i'm stucked at the last questions. got to read on hundred over pages resources. how sucky?! imagine imagine =(
somebody just upload your ws so that i can refer?

and i always let hilario down. i did his ws but not his rj. arrrghh!!!
TRAINING.....

dad says not to love.

2009-06-29T15:35:00.005+08:00

hug me and tell me i dont have to feel cold anymore.

set it up and tear it down.
so hard so hard

i'm lost..

2009-06-28T16:29:00.003+08:00

you make it so hard for me to breathe.
tell me what to do.

p.s. broke down

ohhh!!! MY BED, my freaking bed!

2009-06-24T20:37:00.004+08:00

yawn!

so many things left undone =(

let nature take its course. let trouble worry for themselves.

i need to spend alot of time, energy, put in alot of effort in rugby now. 100% is still not good enough.

grades are fine =)

scold me for being bad, slap me to wake up. still, this's the way both of you do things and i hate it to the ultimate core. scream at me for saying this, if not for yourselves, for your blood please. PLEASE! fucking just stop it. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!

i love you so much and you are breaking my heart. dont make me cry because i always believe never for this reason. not now, not ever.

p.s. walk a little, breathe a little

kill those fights!

2009-06-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

i wanna make up na na na na..

2009-06-22T00:24:00.001+08:00

thank you for the motivation. it helps alot alot. really. i never will forget that day and will try very hard to make it worth.

hang on!

2009-06-21T02:17:00.002+08:00

ashamed and proud of

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

there are no boundaries

your star, shiny in my eyes

2009-06-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.

If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
you know I'll be there for you

p.s. Now I see, what love means

stay the same

2009-06-16T00:22:00.002+08:00

dream with me =)

i miss driving.. take you on a ride.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HJ, yesterday!

2009-06-14T03:20:00.002+08:00

"i thought you're imperfect until you came into my life."
- low expectation brings about happiness.
- hold no expectation and you'll be surprised by what you get.

FUCKED UP!

2009-06-13T02:16:00.006+08:00

get well soon.

take my hand. be my prince =)
supergirl, faithfully.

2009-06-10T01:40:00.005+08:00

Like the clouds you
Drift me away, far away
And like the sun you
Brighten my day, you brighten my day
I never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie
Said I never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter
How hard we might swing

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

before i fly..

2009-06-06T16:39:00.003+08:00

welcome home! this is for you.

i bet youre dead tired and hungry. dig in baby!

honestly, i was feeling damn damn disappointed in the morning. what a greeting =(

well, its ok its ok. i understand. no yellow ribbon, dont do it again?

whats in food journal today? all the JUNK food and drink!

bring you along, where i fly.

its about you.

2009-06-06T02:29:00.003+08:00

its a gentleman's behavior. its a gentleman's game.

i guess i took alittle too long to figure this. i should try to love bodybuilding.
loving is more than being appreciative?

You're always on my mind while I'm racin', While I'm paper chasin',
You were there when I said one day, "I get up out that basement"
Playin' as my agent, for you there's no replacement
You will always be my girl, they can hold me on that statement

welcome to my life!

2009-06-04T14:27:00.006+08:00

i love you silly
i love you dumb
i love you clever
i love you thoughtful
i love you mad
i love you ugly
i love you glamorous

RP touch @ Glitz'09

2009-06-04T14:05:00.007+08:00

SUPERSTAR LOVES ME TOO!

2009-06-02T13:20:00.003+08:00

Glitz '09 was awesome! VERY VERY! ladies were all 'oh my god-ly' dressed. i wont say over-dressed. i think its pretty suitable for such PARTY! hahha. guess the only let down was the plans after that. everybody went home? ya.

yest we saw the 'clean' and gorgeous side of us. later at training, we'll see the 'dirty' and unglam side. HAHHAHAH!! we're back to MUD.

p.s. courtesy to wen. love and thanks.

rocka baby..

awesome you

2009-06-01T13:56:00.001+08:00

GAYGIRL

girlfriend's mad.
good afternoon =)

2009-05-30T23:43:00.002+08:00

You cannot step twice into the same river, for other waters are continually flowing on.
- Heraclitus

The past should be culled like a box of fresh strawberries, rinsed of debris, sweetened judiciously and served in small portions, not very often.
- Laura Palmer

Love is the irresistible desire to be desired irresistibly.
- Louis Ginsberg

forget about the past, treasure the present. enjoy life to the ultra max cause you never know when is your last moment in life =) 'chiongsters' are great people.

p.s. and i've no intention to ever try taming this free-spirit, from when i started loving you. sleeping in a small hut we call home. along the coast, where the sun raises, you'll realise my love for you.

2009-05-29T22:52:00.004+08:00

BYE BYE UGLY BETTY!

being overconfident and feeling inferior? either one, you're a loser. "too much of everything is not good."

"everytime i'm on it, i know i got to give my best. 40 mins of blood and sweat, FOCUS and SHUT THEM DOWN! this is all i know. let me change, i wont take too long."
i'm perfect.

keep rockin' and keep knockin'
shake the glitter. shake, shake, shake the glitter
one, two, three, four
uno dos tres cautro
i know you want me, you know i want cha

glory back home

2009-05-24T15:13:00.002+08:00

it's not easy.
stick by it. i've lost it and found back.
i'll work very hard to fit this and to prove it was not a misjudged.

p.s. with gratitude.

You are the hand that I reach for
when I don't want to be alone
you are the voice i hear at night
lets me know ill be alright
When i need a real good friend
dont have to look far
youre the best
Im safe here in your arms
and i know this is where i belong

2009-05-23T01:50:00.002+08:00

I
MUST
WIN
BECAUSE
I
AM
PERFECT

hahha! i just talk cock to waikin. i told him he plays basketball and i play rugby. the shape of the ball is different, cannot compare the both of us. damn clown. well, my circus is everywhere =)
GOT GAME TMR! the field is our bbq pit. roast ourselves. BEST THING IN LIFE! check it out.
if i dont sleep this moment, i'll be very late tmr. sweetest night.

p.s. fall in love over again tonight, love. i hope i can see your dreams.

irony of love

2009-05-21T11:03:00.001+08:00

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

are you ready?

2009-05-20T10:42:00.001+08:00

the hardest thing...

2009-05-18T01:50:00.001+08:00

"Baby you surround me

You touch every place in my heart

Oh it feels like the first time every time

I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes"

see you tomorrow in school.

pump pump PUMP!

2009-05-16T21:42:00.003+08:00

greed sucks!
for a moment, i forgot all the reasons. now at this moment, i need freedom.

i'm still perfect but unbeautiful.
never keep anything that is imperfect. certainly.

i'm eating my own shit. FUCK OFF!
is having regrets something inevitable?
NO!

=(

2009-05-13T11:12:00.002+08:00

BLANK!
whats now?
whack me! i stay conscious all these while. i'm certain just a little messy inside.

i dont know how it feels like? i said this passion is fading. now i'm making it clearer: i've lost it. and i begin to question myself how important it was to me? how i made this statement and how my feelings brought me down eventually. yet again, only losers quit.

2009-05-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

my passion, my dream, my wish. my life

"Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears

And so you fight to keep from pouring out

But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul

Do you think that there's enough you might drown"

your shelter - my heart.

2009-05-01T22:51:00.004+08:00

play was a total disaster yest. GOD! utterly disappointed.

tiny bits of enjoyment though.

p.s. WOAH! i'm going honeymoon with wen tmr. we are going overseas. BYE BYE SINGAPORE!!

" you you you you you you you

i i i i i i i want you

i want you you you you you you you

I I I I I I I WANT YOU "

2009-04-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

if i could, i would choose to love rugby. just rugby.

only when i'm wasted then i feel free.
if coke is powerful enough to make me drunk, i'll drink 10 x 1.5 everyday.
lets get high! PARTY HARD! bang your head and remain unconscious cause reality sucks!

"i wanna i wanna i wanna..

hear me say..

i gotta hold you somehow."

2009-04-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

remind myself to remember what i told wen.

2009-04-26T12:13:00.003+08:00

26 - 34 °C

Fair except for showers with thunder

mainly over southern and western

Singapore in the late morning

FUCK UP!
forced myself to wake up in some horrendous hours. intend to sun tan and only to see patches of dark clouds forming when i opened the door. and it took some boody time to rain, all i heard was thunder and thunder. waste my time. and i'll remember that the weather forecast is never trusty. and i know i cant sleep until i've sun tanned.

i'll squat outside my house, wait for the rain to stop and run to sun tan.

i never want it to be..

2009-04-23T22:18:00.003+08:00

When you're riding, only the race in which you're riding is important. -Bill Shoemaker

something that should not be contemplated. we hide because we know exactly how vulnerable we are. we are all superman, words are cheap. it acts more like a form of assurance. they pledge all shit, they broke this bridge. separated by an ocean, i couldnt swim. i dont blame, i hate. i really do.

this is mature. and is sensible. say you're holding on and i'll let you fly.

i appreciate you. for all you want to be.
thank god.

2009-04-21T23:14:00.002+08:00

oh, just do what you want, what you want like nobody's watchin'
do what you want, what you want keep the party rockin'
what, what, what, give it up like nobody's watchin'

i never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
but it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
when you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

You can talk all you want but my skin is really thick

good day tmr. wednesday though. let this independent soul rule.
and i've been reminding myself everyday things i said to wen.
i'm kind of disappointed when i left school half way today. fuck!
i seriously have no idea what will happen tmr. hahah!
i have michelle, nisa, hj.

2009-04-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

dad asked how's my first day of school. i feel like screaming 'AWESOME'

may today last forever. classmates are cool-er then i thought. and i know exactly how much i missed each and everyone of my friends during that hell 10 months. my point of view: friends live forever in my heart however far i go, however long we dont speak. we never run out of topic. in fact when we finally meet, we talk like its not the first day of school. its freaking amazing.

nevermind the location of our classes, the system and the faci. its ok to grumble.

i cant sleep when i think of mon, tue, thurs and fri. when i think of wed, i'm speechless. when i think of weekends, i feel i'm living.

i told b i dont emo.

i need to honor what i've said. honeys, wen.

i started because i want to feel how you're feeling.

bring me the sun, bring me the rain

2009-04-20T01:42:00.004+08:00

WWWOooo!!!
i'm back! from hell. i've got alot alot alot of things to do tmr. i'm looking forward. i'm so excited i think i need to shit. aahhah!!

i'll be going school tmr with a plain empty mind and heart. lets start anew. breathe in, breathe hard, breathe out, everything comes out. COOL!! WOWOOOAHHA!! EVERYTHING'S FINE NOW! I'M JOBLESS! i feel so COOOOL!

take everything but my freedom.
take a long break.

i know i've taken the first step the moment i left.
ya. now i remember.
the only thing left unsaid just now was to give me a chance to start believing.
its too late. i know.

ANYWAY!! HELLO NEW GORGEOUS CLASSMATES!! I HOPE I LOVE YOU ALL!

2009-04-18T00:07:00.003+08:00

home home home except to meet nisa early in the afternoon. i feel so handicap sitting infront of the television watching lameshit drama. well, it doesnt matter as long as officers are happy. ANYTHING FOR THEM.

i guess its time for me to sleep before i start screaming.
loosen your grip, breathe easy, let go.
when you feel your shoulders loaded with very heavy very heavy shit.

and you'll only feel free when you're wasted. you're never alive in reality.
holiday is over, fun continues.

take a bow, i'm fine.
i'll wake up tmr to realise today is a disaster. and i wont remb anything i say.

sometimes i wish i could save you

2009-04-17T16:49:00.004+08:00

i've to stop killing your space

home security is becoming tight. officers are becoming angry. i'll be good.
TAKE A BREATH.. i'm going back to sleep.
ZZzzz..

2009-04-16T14:10:00.003+08:00

WOAH!!!! i'm feeling..... AWESOME! this feeling is great. COOL! i slept for some 16 hours! imagine how tired i was. some pictures taken with very cool people in my life.

i realised i should smile more.

i'm making my life very beautiful!
i'm losing my tan.. for an apparent reason.

i know how far out i'll go for rugby. feel certain. just alittle will do.

lets go school amy!

2009-04-14T15:48:00.002+08:00

"The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain."

lord byron

I'M PERFECT!

2009-04-14T01:58:00.002+08:00

NO WAY OUT! uncaged, unmasked!
fly again and be thankful you got what you deserve.

i dont want to tame a free spirit.

2009-04-13T12:31:00.002+08:00

i wake up every morning to find out that yesterday was a disaster.
i will know what to do when i finally see a straight line.
drinking hardcore and getting wasted is the best thing in life. MY LIFE!
life is delicious... GOOD AFTERNOON GORGEOUS PEOPLE!!
i'll give every thursday to you.

SCHOOL!
thats why i love going to school.
go school with eric in the morning
meet rev, eric, daryl, kaisheng, ishan, nicole, nana, sucy, kenny, bel during breaks slack hardcore at coffeeshop. do and talk shit. forget about ppt.
meet eric after school.

awesome

2009-04-11T16:10:00.001+08:00

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day’s a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What’s worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts ’cause there’s no second try
So live like you’ll never live it twice
Don’t take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you’re dreamin’ of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it’s never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin’ stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

2009-04-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

I WILL DISCOVER HAPPINESS! thanks sista for this phrase "we only live life once".

stop wasting life away and sleep less. cause only the dead sleeps.

i want honeys inside my blood. so i can have them forever.
BANG HARD CORE!!

2009-04-07T22:22:00.002+08:00

i'm a loser and you are one big poo.
we suck in our own ways.

2009-04-07T00:07:00.001+08:00

so much so much so much. i'm thinking..

2009-04-06T12:48:00.003+08:00

nonsense.

i'm gonna face bitch again. is really frustrating. i really despise and i'm utterly disgusted by this behavior. VERY! VERY! FUCK UP SHIT! stop wasting oxygen and go hell.
how reluctant to work.

2009-04-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

veronica says everything's gonna be fine and i believe.
my honeys never give me the wrong advice. instead they're always there to pull me back when i took the wrong path. and then again, they saved me.

if you ask whats one thing i really hate, it'd be dishonesty.
you got to make everything right cause i'll make everything wrong.

2009-04-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

HELLO VERONICA!

ahaha!! i kept my cool but lost it alittle. just alittle. anyway hwa chong's game was alright, not bad. and we had a shocked when boo came forward asking some of us who stayed back for pirates game to play for UWC! Arrghh!! like so random and sudden. but well anyway, we played and we like it.. we benefit from it. awesome game.

my leg is freaking swollen and it HURRTTSS!!! FEEL MY PAIN!!! OOUUCHH!! for a moment during UWC's game i really thought i broke my wrist when i collided with.. i forgot who but i think is faezah. ahahha!! funny but painful. and.. i can hearing my wrist cracking - the other one. like... so scary!! but its fine its fine. seriously, the swollen part is freaking painful. its fine its fine. cause you know touch rugby is never all about touch.

never mind about all the pain and shit. as long as i feel, i've tried my best. maybe this's not yet my best. i dont know. but i'll be trying. keep trying.. give up NO!

i hope all of us, every single one of us understands how our mentality maybe not always but i think is always gets in our way. its really ALL IN THE MIND! lets not give up cause we know we're gonna make it.

before that, tell me we're all gonna make it to downtown soon.

2009-04-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

okok now i think you're hot and you've got a really delicious build. like finally. thats for you. as for you, i think you need to work harder but, i still think you're charming-er. WAHHAHA!!

well anyway, today sucked! alot of things happened and i'm really affected in every way. so lets skipped all these. i'm all out looking for something better. tmr's game.. i hope i keep my cool and play my best. save my breathe and learn to breathe. how much i love ruggers and wanna hug them to sleep every night? never gonna waste my life away.

and thats my only wish now: look down and pray for a better day when i open my eyes later. i really need. when things dont get better, something must be gone. when i dont perform, i cant stay. this's the bottom line, everything is clear and there's certainly no gray areas to it. like again, i know whats at stake.

so many things.. no stress no stress. slow and easy, one by one. life is beautiful, always. someone somewhere out there. save me. i know i can do it and i know if there's a will, there's a way. unfortunately, things are all messed up, really hardcore kind. how much i hate to clear all these mess but well, I KNOW i got to clear my own shit and pick myself up again.

i need to go somewhere now. the only place where i can find peace and solution. (grandma's house)

and oh ya! fuck yourself hardcore bitch! you'll see whats coming. and i'm still not over the fact that you're just fucking infront of me and i'm speaking to you in the nicest tone. believe me, i'm still cursing and i'm not gonna stop. i dont care if i'm bad and sinful cause i know youre shit worst. my irresponsibilily is nothing compared to your dishonestly and dirty hands, old lady! YOU STINK!

never a loser.

2009-03-31T01:31:00.001+08:00

i swear i'll sleep after one round of monopoly. I MUST WIN!