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if i could, i would choose to love rugby. just rugby.

only when i'm wasted then i feel free.
if coke is powerful enough to make me drunk, i'll drink 10 x 1.5 everyday.
lets get high! PARTY HARD! bang your head and remain unconscious cause reality sucks!

"i wanna i wanna i wanna..

hear me say..

i gotta hold you somehow."

Labels: 00:12

remind myself to remember what i told wen.

26 - 34 °C

Fair except for showers with thunder

mainly over southern and western

Singapore in the late morning

FUCK UP!
forced myself to wake up in some horrendous hours. intend to sun tan and only to see patches of dark clouds forming when i opened the door. and it took some boody time to rain, all i heard was thunder and thunder. waste my time. and i'll remember that the weather forecast is never trusty. and i know i cant sleep until i've sun tanned.

i'll squat outside my house, wait for the rain to stop and run to sun tan.

i never want it to be..

When you're riding, only the race in which you're riding is important. -Bill Shoemaker

something that should not be contemplated. we hide because we know exactly how vulnerable we are. we are all superman, words are cheap. it acts more like a form of assurance. they pledge all shit, they broke this bridge. separated by an ocean, i couldnt swim. i dont blame, i hate. i really do.

this is mature. and is sensible. say you're holding on and i'll let you fly.

i appreciate you. for all you want to be.
thank god.

Labels: 22:55

oh, just do what you want, what you want like nobody's watchin'
do what you want, what you want keep the party rockin'
what, what, what, give it up like nobody's watchin'

i never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
but it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
when you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

You can talk all you want but my skin is really thick

good day tmr. wednesday though. let this independent soul rule.
and i've been reminding myself everyday things i said to wen.
i'm kind of disappointed when i left school half way today. fuck!
i seriously have no idea what will happen tmr. hahah!
i have michelle, nisa, hj.

Labels: 23:55

dad asked how's my first day of school. i feel like screaming 'AWESOME'

may today last forever. classmates are cool-er then i thought. and i know exactly how much i missed each and everyone of my friends during that hell 10 months. my point of view: friends live forever in my heart however far i go, however long we dont speak. we never run out of topic. in fact when we finally meet, we talk like its not the first day of school. its freaking amazing.

nevermind the location of our classes, the system and the faci. its ok to grumble.

i cant sleep when i think of mon, tue, thurs and fri. when i think of wed, i'm speechless. when i think of weekends, i feel i'm living.

i told b i dont emo.

i need to honor what i've said. honeys, wen.

i started because i want to feel how you're feeling.

Labels: 00:20

bring me the sun, bring me the rain

WWWOooo!!!
i'm back! from hell. i've got alot alot alot of things to do tmr. i'm looking forward. i'm so excited i think i need to shit. aahhah!!

i'll be going school tmr with a plain empty mind and heart. lets start anew. breathe in, breathe hard, breathe out, everything comes out. COOL!! WOWOOOAHHA!! EVERYTHING'S FINE NOW! I'M JOBLESS! i feel so COOOOL!

take everything but my freedom.
take a long break.

i know i've taken the first step the moment i left.
ya. now i remember.
the only thing left unsaid just now was to give me a chance to start believing.
its too late. i know.

ANYWAY!! HELLO NEW GORGEOUS CLASSMATES!! I HOPE I LOVE YOU ALL!

Labels: 02:08

home home home except to meet nisa early in the afternoon. i feel so handicap sitting infront of the television watching lameshit drama. well, it doesnt matter as long as officers are happy. ANYTHING FOR THEM.

i guess its time for me to sleep before i start screaming.
loosen your grip, breathe easy, let go.
when you feel your shoulders loaded with very heavy very heavy shit.

and you'll only feel free when you're wasted. you're never alive in reality.
holiday is over, fun continues.

take a bow, i'm fine.
i'll wake up tmr to realise today is a disaster. and i wont remb anything i say.

Labels: 00:24

sometimes i wish i could save you

i've to stop killing your space

home security is becoming tight. officers are becoming angry. i'll be good.
TAKE A BREATH.. i'm going back to sleep.
ZZzzz..

Labels: 16:57

WOAH!!!! i'm feeling..... AWESOME! this feeling is great. COOL! i slept for some 16 hours! imagine how tired i was. some pictures taken with very cool people in my life.

i realised i should smile more.

i'm making my life very beautiful!
i'm losing my tan.. for an apparent reason.

i know how far out i'll go for rugby. feel certain. just alittle will do.

lets go school amy!

Labels: 14:25

"The great art of life is sensation, to feel that we exist, even in pain."

lord byron

I'M PERFECT!

NO WAY OUT! uncaged, unmasked!
fly again and be thankful you got what you deserve.

i dont want to tame a free spirit.

i wake up every morning to find out that yesterday was a disaster.
i will know what to do when i finally see a straight line.
drinking hardcore and getting wasted is the best thing in life. MY LIFE!
life is delicious... GOOD AFTERNOON GORGEOUS PEOPLE!!
i'll give every thursday to you.

SCHOOL!
thats why i love going to school.
go school with eric in the morning
meet rev, eric, daryl, kaisheng, ishan, nicole, nana, sucy, kenny, bel during breaks slack hardcore at coffeeshop. do and talk shit. forget about ppt.
meet eric after school.

Labels: 12:55

awesome

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day’s a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What’s worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts ’cause there’s no second try
So live like you’ll never live it twice
Don’t take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you’re dreamin’ of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it’s never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin’ stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

Labels: 16:15

I WILL DISCOVER HAPPINESS! thanks sista for this phrase "we only live life once".

stop wasting life away and sleep less. cause only the dead sleeps.

i want honeys inside my blood. so i can have them forever.
BANG HARD CORE!!

Labels: 1:12

i'm a loser and you are one big poo.
we suck in our own ways.

so much so much so much. i'm thinking..

Labels: 00:08

nonsense.

i'm gonna face bitch again. is really frustrating. i really despise and i'm utterly disgusted by this behavior. VERY! VERY! FUCK UP SHIT! stop wasting oxygen and go hell.
how reluctant to work.

Labels: 13:13

veronica says everything's gonna be fine and i believe.
my honeys never give me the wrong advice. instead they're always there to pull me back when i took the wrong path. and then again, they saved me.

if you ask whats one thing i really hate, it'd be dishonesty.
you got to make everything right cause i'll make everything wrong.

Labels: 00:28

HELLO VERONICA!

ahaha!! i kept my cool but lost it alittle. just alittle. anyway hwa chong's game was alright, not bad. and we had a shocked when boo came forward asking some of us who stayed back for pirates game to play for UWC! Arrghh!! like so random and sudden. but well anyway, we played and we like it.. we benefit from it. awesome game.

my leg is freaking swollen and it HURRTTSS!!! FEEL MY PAIN!!! OOUUCHH!! for a moment during UWC's game i really thought i broke my wrist when i collided with.. i forgot who but i think is faezah. ahahha!! funny but painful. and.. i can hearing my wrist cracking - the other one. like... so scary!! but its fine its fine. seriously, the swollen part is freaking painful. its fine its fine. cause you know touch rugby is never all about touch.

never mind about all the pain and shit. as long as i feel, i've tried my best. maybe this's not yet my best. i dont know. but i'll be trying. keep trying.. give up NO!

i hope all of us, every single one of us understands how our mentality maybe not always but i think is always gets in our way. its really ALL IN THE MIND! lets not give up cause we know we're gonna make it.

before that, tell me we're all gonna make it to downtown soon.

Labels: 18:42

okok now i think you're hot and you've got a really delicious build. like finally. thats for you. as for you, i think you need to work harder but, i still think you're charming-er. WAHHAHA!!

well anyway, today sucked! alot of things happened and i'm really affected in every way. so lets skipped all these. i'm all out looking for something better. tmr's game.. i hope i keep my cool and play my best. save my breathe and learn to breathe. how much i love ruggers and wanna hug them to sleep every night? never gonna waste my life away.

and thats my only wish now: look down and pray for a better day when i open my eyes later. i really need. when things dont get better, something must be gone. when i dont perform, i cant stay. this's the bottom line, everything is clear and there's certainly no gray areas to it. like again, i know whats at stake.

so many things.. no stress no stress. slow and easy, one by one. life is beautiful, always. someone somewhere out there. save me. i know i can do it and i know if there's a will, there's a way. unfortunately, things are all messed up, really hardcore kind. how much i hate to clear all these mess but well, I KNOW i got to clear my own shit and pick myself up again.

i need to go somewhere now. the only place where i can find peace and solution. (grandma's house)

and oh ya! fuck yourself hardcore bitch! you'll see whats coming. and i'm still not over the fact that you're just fucking infront of me and i'm speaking to you in the nicest tone. believe me, i'm still cursing and i'm not gonna stop. i dont care if i'm bad and sinful cause i know youre shit worst. my irresponsibilily is nothing compared to your dishonestly and dirty hands, old lady! YOU STINK!

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